Nostalgic to a Fault

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Oh the memories involved with this car.  I came into work today and there is a 1969 VW Beetle in one of the flat bays – no rust.

I can’t express how seeing one of these cars now makes me feel.  This was the car I learned to drive in.  I had one each of a rainbow of colors – black, red, yellow, light blue.  This was the car that Tim and I pulled the engine out by ourselves and rebuilt it using a book call How to Keep your Volkswagen Alive: A Manual of Step-by-Step Procedures for the Complete Idiot.  We dropped the engine in the driveway and lifted the car off of it and rolled it away.  I learned a lot doing that project (not that VW’s were tremendously complicated cars).

When they come into the shop I sit in them and remember really what a lousy car they were.  The shifters are wonky, the gas tank basically sits in your lap, the windshield is right in your face.  In the winter you froze because the heat never worked.  I remember using my license to scrape the frost off of the INSIDE of the windshield driving to school in the winter.  BUT they were tanks in the snow.  The engine weighted the back of a rear wheel drive car with large narrow tires.  If you had snows on this baby there was no where you couldn’t drive in a snowstorm (unless the snow was deep enough to hit the undercarriage, I found that out once – a plow it was not). They were hot in the summer, there were triangular side windows to catch a breeze as you drove along.

They are total dogs to drive no matter what the terrain.  My brother had a number of them and talked about a VW drag race he had in Amherst once.  The pedal was to the floor on both cars, flying through the gears.  The excitement of the race only to look at his speedometer at the end of their little track and realize that they never got above 45 mph.  That made me laugh.  If you were watching them race it would be the most boring thing ever but to actually be the driver . . .

After a while my brother became my official repairman.  He had a lot of these cars (some are still on the property).  I broke down on the side of Route 2 in Shelburne on my way to GCC one morning, I knew he had a later class at the same school so I waited for him to come by and pick me up.  He was not happy, but what he was unhappy about is that I didn’t drive it until the car no longer moved.  He liked to see how much damage you could do to the engine and still be able to resurrect it.

These days the only VWs I usually see are in pieces, rusted into the ground so when I see one in such sweet condition I sit in it and reminisce.  Then I remember that it was the adventures I had with those cars not so much what great cars they were.

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Oh the Joys of an Old Home

Yellow Rose

There is no photograph of what is going on here right now that anyone would want to see.

Last week I noticed that the drains were making a glugging sound every time someone took a shower or a load of laundry was being done.  Last night when we arrived in Rowe after our 5 1/2 hour drive we found that the toilets weren’t flushing.  Hmmmmmm, I knew that we had had a lot of rain lately but I couldn’t believe the water table would be high enough to fill the septic tank.

This morning we conducted a series of experiments to see if we could pinpoint what was going on and figured out that we must have some sort of clogged pipe in the sewer system from the house out to the tank – not good.  We consider ourselves do it yourselfers but we have limits and the septic is where we draw the line.

We called our friendly plumbers at Ward Plumbing and Heating in Buckland and Dale was here before 1:00.  That’s service – it took him a couple of hours to get here and he’s half an hour away.  Somehow I think if I was a plumber and was called with this kind of problem I would leave it until the end of the day.

They cleared what was a clogged pipe of god knows what (I personally don’t want to know) and the water is running through beautifully.  They are cleaning up as I write.

If this had happened in Enfield it would probably be a couple of days to get someone to the house but there we have city sewer.  When you live in a rural area your septic system is a constant worry.  The expense of repairing or replacing it would do us in.  The good news is the septic is fine and we can breathe a sigh of relief in knowing that.

Community and Communication

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Today sister Sue sent me an article entitled How Not To Be Alone  that was published this past Sunday in the NYT.  As I was reading it I was struck by how I’ve seen every technological change that was talked about in this article.  Growing up in a small, small community helped me see these changes in a more personal and much slower way.  Cell service is still non-existent in the town but the internet arrived a little while ago.  Our friends still drop in for unexpected visits which I always find delightful.  I think it says a lot about the relationship when you are comfortable enough to just get into your car and drive to a friend’s house expecting a quality visit.  The friends we have in Rowe are all comfortable with interrupting our day, they know we don’t see it as an interruption but as a time to reconnect.

It’s not the same in Enfield.  You cannot drop in on friends without an appointment.  People’s lives in suburbia are a very different thing.  Everything is so much faster, more frenetic.  I have lived in Enfield since 1984, we have lived in our house since 1998.  I still do not know my neighbors even though I can walk around the block and see what everyone is watching on their televisions on any given night – and I can walk it in less than 10 minutes. We have a few long time friends but they are not people we see on a regular basis – it’s always good to visit with them but it doesn’t happen often.

My kids would tell you that the reason we don’t have relationships with people in Enfield, where we spend over half of our lives right now, is because we are never here.  I think the real reason we are never here is because we don’t have the relationships we have in Rowe.  We have a community in Rowe, people who care enough about each other to stop by and talk face to face.

A couple of years ago I had internet put into the house in Rowe.  I did it because the girls always complained about not having it, they were disconnected.  I tried to convince them that it was a GOOD thing.  What has happened over the past couple of years is that I use it more.  I use it to communicate with them.  It saddens me to realize they will probably never realized the joy of friends dropping by without an “appointment”.  Our gatherings are more planned, just as joyous but I think something is lost in the spontaneity.

Dreaming of Possibilities

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Last night I finished my overshot throw and took it off of the loom.  I’m amazed at how quickly the weaving went.  I will post a photograph of it once it’s finished.  I still have to sew, wash and do the fringe (twisted I think).  It’s quite beautiful and I’m pleased with the way it looks.  This was a lot of fun along with the frustration.

Taking this project off of the loom in class marked the end of weaving lessons until the fall.  After we took it off the loom Pam spread it out and said “Well, it’s beautiful, now you’ll just have to come to weave for fun because there is nothing else I can teach you.”  Yeah, right.  I have to say I have never taken a class where I learned so much in such a short period of time.  I’m excited at the prospect of the many, many new weaving projects ahead.  Every time I take something off of a loom the next project is rolling around in my head.  I haven’t really got the Maltese Cross out of my system yet so I will probably make another one on the loom at home in another color.  I’m also looking at other overshot drafts.  I figure since I’ve done one design it shouldn’t be a problem doing another, just read the draft.

I have a 40 minute drive to and from weaving class.  It always seems like it takes forever to get there in anticipation of what new thing I’m going to learn.  The drive home seems like it takes much less time.  I go over and over what I’ve done in the last 3 to 4 hours.  I think about the structure, the colors, the process.  I think that’s the sign of a good fit in craft – you dream of the possibilities.

The Reason I Started to Weave

Book Cover

Most of my family on both my mother’s and father’s sides immigrated to the United States in the late 1800’s, the majority of them went to work in woolen mills in various parts of New England.  This is fairly typical for immigrants of that era.  Their skills were learned on the job and they worked their way into different jobs in a particular type of manufacturing.

My father’s father, Elmer, worked in woolen mills his entire life.  I can’t say for sure what all of his jobs entailed but he is listed in the 1930 Census as a Loom Fixer.  He was a brilliant man and could fix anything, including machining any parts that he needed.

He left behind a number of books where he kept track of all sorts of things including loom set ups.  I had never woven a thing so when I looked at this particular book it didn’t make any sense other than to know that they were drafts and swatches of fabric that he had woven.  That’s pretty cool in itself.

Weave Instructions (1)He had his own woolen mill in the late 50’s and early 60’s and I’m assuming these were some of the drafts for what he was weaving at the time.

Weave Instructions (3)Not ever having woven a thing I had no idea what he was talking about but felt like if I learned then I could be privy to his secret language, sort of get inside of his head.

Weave Instructions (4)A friend was moving last summer and posted on her Facebook page that she needed to get rid of her Harrisville loom and was anyone interested – I jumped on it.  When I did I was thinking about this book and my family heritage with weaving.  I googled weaving instructors for that particular loom and found Pam in Brimfield.  I brought the book into class the second week to find out if I would be able to read it at some point.  The mechanical looms are very different from the hand looms but what I’ve found is they are all the same really.  She assured me that I would be able to read his drafts but would also be able to weave them

I look at this book in a totally different way now.  I understand what he was saying and doing and it’s truly amazing.  He would write the drafts, set up the looms and then attach a swatch of what he had created in his mind.  Wow.

In the past year of weaving class I have learned the mechanics of dressing a loom and weaving structure (the basics).  I have learned that my brain works in a way where I can see from a draft what a weaving structure will look like.  I’ve learned that I inherited the ability to do this and understand it.  Now I can spend some time actually weaving some of the drafts that my Pampi wrote.  How cool it that?

An Opinion on Mental Health

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I’m feeling more than a little guilty about not posting as consistently as usual and I’m afraid this will not be the kind of uplifting post that I normally try to achieve.  We all have struggles in life and for that past 10 to 12 years we have struggled with my youngest daughter’s mental illness.  At this point I can only refer to it as a mental illness because I’m not sure what exactly it is.  She was diagnosed with Bipolar II a number of years ago and has been medicated ever since.  Unfortunately, as I’ve seen with other people with mental illness, medication is fine for a while but brain chemistry changes and the drugs they are taking are no longer effective.  For Cait, instead of really trying to figure out what the underlying problems were more drugs were added year after year to counter new symptoms.  Then drugs were added to counteract the side effects of the drugs she’d been prescribed.  A few weeks ago Cait hit a depression the depth of which I hadn’t seen before.  A week ago she stopped taking her meds because she just didn’t see the point in any of it any more.  On some level I can understand that.  She’s tired, so tired of all of it and the thought that this is a lifetime disability just made her stop functioning.  Her mental health team was horrified that she stopped taking her meds.  Friday she went to the hospital, asked for a psych evaluation and she was put into full hospitalization. (This was after she spent 34 hours in the ER in a solitary room with a guard and a recliner).  I’ve quoted what she said on FB before they took all electronics away from her.

You need to know that my Caitlyn is a brilliant woman with her masters in clinical mental health counseling.  This is a two-edged sword in a lot of ways.  She continually self diagnoses and now she’s in a situation where she’s observing and documenting everything that every mental health worker is saying and doing.  I think her hope is that she will either get a different diagnosis or a new medication regimen that will help her cope with what’s happening in her brain.  Cait is also a very strong, willful person and will make sure she understands what is happening while hospitalized and will not settle for some off the cuff diagnosis or medication changes.  She is already questioning the drugs they are giving her.  God help the people taking care of her, she will make each and every one of them question their diagnosis and probably their career choice as well.

When I read the quote below I understood exactly what she was saying and was seeing the mental health system for what it is first hand.  When the tragedy at Sandy Hook took place the first thing I said was the perpetrator and his mother had been seriously let down by the mental health system in the US.  There is not enough funding, and it continues to be cut daily.  Once an unstable individual reaches 18 a parents’ hands are tied.  We are no longer privy to any information of any kind and cannot make life or death decisions that ultimately affect our children.  They have to be coerced.  Cait committed herself “voluntarily” only after realizing that she really had no choice and I was the one who had to drive her there and make her do it.  Harsh.  This is one of those moments when I truly wish things in my life were different.

“And now I know why we have people who end up being on the assailant end of mass shootings and bombings (not that I didn’t already know this and I am absolutely NOT excusing any of that behavior but…) …ya know, we wonder why all this stuff has continued to happen and has probably gotten much worse lately…honestly, take a look at the state of the worlds friggin mental health system!! ESPECIALLY the United States!! I mean, seriously?? Are you really stupid enough to believe that those things would have still happened if we actually VALUED and PAID ATTENTION to those that are in or need to be in the mental health system in this country?? Wake the fuck up! Stop CUTTING the mental health budget and dont bother putting all this time and effort into friggin gun control laws because honestly it’s almost to the point of no return on that front…why don’t we put our time and energy into fixing the true ROOT of the problem instead of just glossing over it and making he issue about weapons…if people want weapons, they will find them…or make them. It doesn’t matter whether there are laws about their possession and such! That’s not going to stop someone. Why don’t the people of this country open their friggin eyes and look at the REAL problem here?! Our mental health system SERIOUSLY blows!! But then again, I already know, people are stupid. Guess I forgot. Lol (rant over. Sorry everyone! Just seriously annoyed, as a mental health professional and someone that knows the value of mental health services…if you disagree, I’m not trying to start an argument so don’t try to start one with me. Thank you.)” Caitlyn Semanie

For the time being Cait has her journal and a pen that gets assigned to her with each shift.  She is surrounded by insanity the likes of which she has never seen.  When I visited her yesterday she said, “I think there will be a book coming out of this and I may have to become an activist for mental health care.”  Watch out, when Cait says something like this she means it.  And I can’t wait to read that book.

The Ruby Rocket

Ruby RocketI was at The Blue Rock restaurant last night.  I went on a mission really because even though it is one of my favorite restaurants I had heard a rumor that the Ruby Rocket cocktail was to die for.  Strawberry Rhubarb pie filling in a glass.  I’m in, all in.

This cocktail was soooooo good I had to know how to make it and our waiter was also the cocktail master. Best happy accident EVER!  Although truth be told I would have hunted down the brains behind this cocktail before I left the restaurant (maybe because I’d had two who knows).

This cocktail is made with a rhubarb infused vodka, strawberry simple syrup and lime.  Today I’m on a mission to make the infused vodka.  When the strawberries are ready the simple syrup will be made and Fourth of July week will be nothing but these delightful martinis all around.

This is slow food at its best in my opinion.  I will update as the process goes along.

 

For Your Kids

If you have small children this is perfect!

Mr. Zee’s Apple Factory – A children’s story about factory food

Yeah, yeah, I know I’m a pest but this is also entertaining.