And Then There’s This – On Food

And then I read this from Verge Permaculture in Canada and had to share.  This is something I truly believe.

 

“ON FOOD SECURITY: I am reading My Ishmael and in one the opening chapters Ishmael says, “You’ll know you’re among the people of your culture if the food is all owned, if it’s all under lock and key.” The very word “food security” implies this very idea, that food is not secure. Language is important in helping us to determine where we are going. It is the very fibre that makes up the fabric that defines our cultural story, a tapestry if you will.

It has taken me some time to define the predicament that our culture finds itself in and I can say that food supply, how it is grown, who grows it, where it comes from, how it is delivered and who owns it is a central theme that permeates a lot of the problems that we are all trying to solve. One of the things that has shed light on all of this is my own food forest in my front yard. This food forest now is largely self managed and it produces asparagus, apples, cherries, gooseberries, currants, honeyberries, seabuckthorn berries and leaves, potatoes, rhodiola, yarrow, strawberries, rhubarb, mint, sunchokes, perennial onions, sorrel, raspberries and raspberry leaves. This system gets more complex and stable every year, produces more and needs less management. It epitomizes food security, in fact it epitomizes food sovereignty. I recognize that we could not live on those foods alone however, ecological design has to be patterned around nature and thus requires connection, so when we scale these systems up with chickens and pigs we have a system that can meet a lot of our needs.

A lot of people say that the concept of food security hinges on who owns the land. This is true, we might also say that “You’ll know you’re among the people of your culture if the land is all owned, if it’s all under lock and key.” He who controls the land controls the food. I agree with this to an extent, I would say that more important than the land are the skills. We find ourselves in an interesting time right now. Never in the history of this culture have there been so many people that know so little. Most of the people that own the land have no clue how to manage it or shall we say, work with it, to obtain a yield. This in my opinion gives the people who have invested in knowledge, skills and understanding the trump card. Land prices right now are completely out of wack, especially in Canada. They are based around two false assumptions… 1) people can manage huge amounts of land because we have an unlimited amount of fossil fuel and 2) Land is based on how many condos or rural acreages you can fit on it, not on the water it harvests or the sun it collects ie. what it can produce. You can see this in agricultural rental rates. You can buy an acre of of prime crop land for 5,000 – 10,000 or you can rent it for $50 – $100/year. If you decide to own, the interest on the land will eat up the profit that you can grow from the land and the venture sinks. Keep in mind 1 acre of wheat sells for about $300.

So where am I going with this. The agricultural model right now is broken and we are not going to sell our way out of this problem. In order to change the fabric of our culture we need to change the thread that we sew the tapestry from. This is going to take time which is why ventures like SPIN farming are so important as a transitional mechanism to meet our food needs locally. Long term however we can all grow our own food sovereignty on much less land, in much less time for much less money than most people think using perennial community owned solutions. And the minute that we stop trying to put things under lock and key, the sooner we will have true freedom. How do we do this? The funny thing with food being “under lock and key” is that food is not a resource that is easy to control. It does not have to be finite like oil or gas, and it is perishible. We can grow a lot more food than we will ever need which would put the Monsanto’s of the world out of business without ever have to protest or legislate anything. This is because food is inherently open source, it produces seed for whomever wants to pick it and it gives people at the grass roots the ultimate power. It replicates extremely fast, which is counter to an economy based in scarcity. Think of this saying “ you can count the number of seeds in an apple but you can’t count the number of apples in a seed”. Locking up food can only happen if there is a scarce supply. You can only have a scarce supply under lock and key if…
1) you have a small population of people producing it,
2) if that population is growing annuals that can store for long periods of time
3) if even a smaller number of people control the seed.

So the solution is, getting everyone to produce just a little, grow perennials which are hard to patent and get everyone to save just a little seed and learn to propagate. Seem unreasonable? Is it any more unreasonable than the situation we find ourselves in right now? Patenting of life, starvation, malnutrition, disease in pandemic proportions and I could go on and on. The more complicated the problems become, the more obvious and simple the solutions have to be.

One day we will wake up and recognize that using current economic metrics, growing food may not be a smart thing to do, but it might just be one of those activities that is stupid not to do if we look at it from a health, freedom, earth and human stewardship point of view. We either need to tune our economics so that it values the metrics that currently are viewed as externalities or change the way we look at the importance of how we feed ourselves. Turn your lawn into your freedom, your health, your activism, your message to the world. If you don’t believe this is possible, read “The Grass is Not Greener” enclosed in the comments section below.

In the meantime have a look at the photo below, I think it will make things a lot clearer.

~Rob”

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Good Food

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My kids call me the doomer.  I try to tell them that I just like to be prepared.  I never want to worry about where my next meal is coming from.  In doing so I have learned to garden in good weather and bad.  This year is one of those years where some things are doing much better than expected while others are an unmitigated disaster.  Every year I seem to say to Bill, “If we had to survive on this year’s garden we would starve to death by February”.  Even though I’m getting better at my gardening and adding more and more perennial beds and plants to the ever changing array of food that I grow I know that it would never be enough for a family to survive on until the next crop comes in.

The main reason I really grow a garden is there is nothing like the taste of a warm cucumber just picked, or that summer tomato.  The real revelation came to me when I grew potatoes for the first time a couple of years ago.  Potatoes freshly dug scream “POTATO” when you eat them.  Something happens to produce the minute it is harvested – the taste begins to wane. There are only two things I grow that improve once picked – pears and long pie pumpkins.

Last weekend we made a spectacular meal of things we have grown (or in the case of the steak watched grow).  These are the meals that are memorable, the ones I like to share with friends and family.  I want them to know their food can be so much better. There is such satisfaction in knowing you started the seeds and nurtured your food.  That there are no chemicals involved in any of the food we ate.  The beef was fed grass and hay from one property, no hormones, antibiotics.  It grew up in fresh air and sunshine.  It tastes like BEEF, not the homogenized red meat you find wrapped in plastic and styrofoam at the grocery store.  There is a huge difference.

The garden surplus I will continue to can to use in the winter months.  Peaches and apricots are next on the list and I will continue with tomatoes.  Even with processing the taste of  home canned fruit of any kind is a revelation in the winter.  The first bite brings you back to summer.  That is what makes all the work of preserving your harvest in the summer worthwhile.

Sandwiched and Still Sane (Sort of)

130512 Rug Hooking (2)I’m currently part of what is referred to as the “Sandwich Generation”.  My father is in assisted living and I have one of my daughters unemployed living at home, a boomerang.

People think assisted living is pretty awesome, and it is for the most part.  I wasn’t truly aware of how much “assisting” I would have to do, but in the grand scheme of things it’s not that challenging.  The expense is exorbitant and increases exponentially a couple of times a year.  That is not something I was expecting although it’s what is happening with healthcare and I suppose this could be very loosely considered healthcare.  There’s a nurse on duty every day but for the most part people enter assisted living because they can no longer live alone.

I really am starting to think the “Squeeze” generation is a more appropriate term.  Every 6 months the expenses go up another 10 to 20% and we are long past what my father’s income is. Being self employed gives you the luxury (or fear) of knowing just where you stand financially.  It also allows you to see into the future a little ways.  I don’t have to worry about job security but I’m also well aware that my income will probably stay where it is for the foreseeable future.

In the back of our minds (and coming to the forefront) is the idea that Dad may have to live with me in the near future.  It’ll be more like me living with him because he will have to live in Rowe.  The logistics of this are challenging in part due to the isolation of this little town.  This is a difficult situation with someone who is limited in their mobility, it’s not like he willingly goes for rides or even leaves his house.  Everyone needs some sort of  human interaction and there just isn’t a lot available.  I’m working on a solution, but the anxiety sometimes gets the best of me.

This is when I weave, knit, hook, something.  This is what keeps me sane in an insane world, my world.  As long as my hands are busy I can think about ways to make it all work.  Or I can just lose myself in the rhythm of weaving or knitting or hooking – and feel the fiber running through my fingers.  There is nothing that calms my spirit more.

Lost and Searching

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Ernest and Rose Alma Alix with Elmer @1912

 

I have been the designated “keeper of all images”  for both my family and Bill’s.  I think this happened because of my background in photography, all things related just came into my house.  I’ve rescued family photographs from trips to the dump in family moves.  Boxes and boxes of photographs were brought to me when Bill’s grandfather died and we cleaned out his home of 60 plus years.  And then there are all of the photographs from multiple generations of my family on both my mother’s and father’s side.

Over the years I’ve sorted and scanned most of them.  They are in folders by families in chronological order.  It sounds fussy but if you are a photographer you get it, especially one who enjoys the history of the craft.  All of the photographs were sorted by type (ie. paper, process), then by clothing and known approximate dates.  What I found was once I scanned them I had a much easier time putting them in order.  You could look at a group of thumbnails and see how people changed, how they aged.  Although I didn’t have exact dates for many of them you can see how the people moved through time.  Being able to see a few photographs side by side also is invaluable when it comes to unknowns.  If you have a family tree at your disposal it’s fairly easy to figure out who’s who.  You become quite intimate with the people in your family who are no longer with you.   You can make up stories in your head about them from the snippets of things you heard growing up and the way they look in the images you have.  You begin to build your story.

The photograph shown here is one of my favorites.  The little boy is my paternal grandfather with his parents.  I love how much he looks like his mother, how he leans into her with her arm around him, hand on his shoulder.  The beauty of scanning your photographs is the capability to look at the details closely.  Her hand is the hand of someone who used them hard.  Life in the early 1900’s was not easy for a farmer’s wife.  They were not well off by any stretch and I know how hard she worked from the stories.  I love that they are wearing their Sunday best.  It’s nice to see that their clothes aren’t threadbare like so many other relatives photos show.

The Alixes put great importance on being photographed.  I have boxes of studio photographs from generation after generation.  These were all taken by people who really didn’t have a lot of money, but it was important to them.  There aren’t a lot of candid shots.  I believe someone may have had a box Brownie around the late 1920’s and you see a little more of their day to day life.  Another way of getting the flavor of what their lives were about.

The Alix photographs are what I grew up with.  I would sit with my grandmother going through the box and she would tell me who people were, where they were, what they were doing.  They are seared into my memory.  For the past few days I’ve been thinking about a particular photograph that I want to write about and for the life of me I can not find it.  I have a gap in my digital files that are all of my father growing up.  There are probably over 50 photographs.  I can see them all in my mind but I can’t put my hands on them – digital or original.  It’s driving me crazy.

In my mind I thought I was magnificently organized when it came to this and I’ve found that there’s a gaping hole.  I’ve searched box after box in the last day to no avail.  They’re around somewhere, I just haven’t located the spot.  So I will continue to search and as I’m looking I will be thinking of all of those stories that surround those images – should be good fodder for future posts.

Another Day Another Problem

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My new fangled technology is letting me down today and posting from a smart phone is difficult at best. Waiting for a tech to call me back. In the mean time I will resort to pen and paper for all invoices and future posts. I will just have some catching up to do once I’m up and running again. Stay tuned.

A Very Small Town

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Small town. Small, small town.

I realized it today as I sat with Dad at lunch at the home and we talked about who was now the oldest resident and the ones that had recently gone before them.

Billie’s the oldest now, living in her home with her oldest daughter, her youngest was a year ahead of me in school in her class of 4.

The litany of those that have passed seems like a list of childhood friendships.  We all knew each other, there are only a hand full of houses in town that I have never been in.  Many of those houses are now occupied by others but in the 60’s and 70’s there were very few people that did not know me.  There were around 300 people living there, it’s difficult to hide.

Those in the grades above and below me were like family, cousins.  We did everything together, there are so few of us and we are so far away from anything.  Rowe had a lot to offer – ball fields, tennis courts, the lake, the beach.  If we wanted to play volleyball in the dead of winter a phone call was made and a key to the school could be had.  We just had to make sure the lights were off and lock up when we were done.

We observed the different parenting styles of our friends mothers and fathers, considered their relationships and marriages.  Divorces, affairs, deaths of children and friends, not common but news just the same.

There were only three other kids in my class in grammar school.  I had only three teachers until I went into the regional high school in 7th grade.  One for kindergarten, one for 1st and 2nd grades and one from 3rd through 6th.  They are all gone now, one just recently – she may have been vying for the title of oldest resident.  The last time I talked to her she asked me if I had my license yet – I was in my forties.  Time stands still in a town of this size I guess.

The problem with a small town is everyone knows everyone else’s business.  They are family, remember?  Things that happened 20 years ago are still fresh in the minds of many residents.  They love their gossip, especially the older ones who have nothing more in their day than speculating about who is driving by their house – one of three cars that day.

As you grow up in a town like this these stories, other people’s stories, color your life.  They become part and parcel of your world.  Even though you move away, staying away for years, when you return it feels as though things are still the same.  Errors in judgment, often are recalled decades later with the story told as if it happened yesterday.

There is some comfort that can be taken in this as well.  You can always go home.  The homes now may be occupied by people unknown to you but I swear some of the stories have been passed down multiple generations. When the opportunity arrives to visit childhood friends, especially in the company of their parents, it is taken with no questions asked.  You listen to them reminisce about days long gone but recognize all of the players.  My father still talks about a particular kid that broke into someone’s house once long ago.  He speaks of this incident like it is a common occurrence and the break ins continue to happen weekly in his mind.  The kid is now in his late forties and living in some unknown town far away, probably to escape the continued judgment of one incident one night when he was 15.

A few weeks ago I was talking to a younger person about where he lived in town.  He and I know the house by who lived in it before him.  The amusing part is we each knew his house by different decades.

The topography of the town has remained the same.  Due to zoning and wetlands there are very few new houses that have been build in the 50 plus years I’ve been in Rowe.  The faces have changed, they are kinder and gentler than the old Yankees that used to occupy this place. I do have a sneaking suspicion that any one of them could tell me about the transgressions of someone I know or something I did 40 years ago that set the town abuzz.  That’s the price you pay for making your life here.

Once you’ve become part of the community you are surrounded by people you can count on for help in any emergency.  You are willing to do anything for those surrounding neighbors if the need arises.  This is still a small piece of the world where you can stop by a friend’s house unannounced and expect an open armed welcome – maybe even a piece of pie.  In a very small town people are familiar, they’re family.

A River Runs Through It

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 I think New Englanders are conditioned at birth to complain about the weather.  If it’s not too cold it’s too hot, too dry, too wet, too windy, you get the idea.  I’m here today to complain about the weather (probably not for the first time).  We have been stuck in an unusual weather pattern for weeks now.  Rain, rain, rain, humidity, rain, thunderstorms, rain, rain, you get the idea.  I’ve looked at my weather apps more in the past month than I ever have, not that I can do anything about it.  I asked a very good friend who’s a weather forecaster (albeit in Arizona) what he thought about the weird weather we were having in this area – he told me the weather was “slightly anomalous”.  Maybe you have to be living in day after day of rain to think it is weird, it does something to your brain after a while.

The photograph above I took this morning while taking the dogs out.  It looks so verdant, everywhere. My gardens are jungles now.  It was raining when I walked outdoors, just a slight sprinkle.  I couldn’t tell because the windows on our house are so fogged from the air conditioning running that you can’t see anything out of them at this point.  The trees are all drooping from the weight of the water on their leaves.  Although the grass looks great (and much greener than it usually does this time of year) it is hiding the river that is running through the center of our back yard.  This river is over 3 feet wide and separates the garden from the tree in the foreground.  

When you exit the back door of the house (which is now so swollen that it will not shut properly) you are hit with the heat and humidity – the air is thick.  Last night when I went out with the dogs I was wearing sandals – I wasn’t aware of the river in the back yard until I stepped into it.  The thing that amazed me the most is the fact that it was warm – like bath water.

The days of summer march on while I sit and wait for those glorious sunny ones with a slight breeze and low humidity, my favorite kind of summer day.  I then realize if the sun comes out it will feel like we are living in a tropical rain forest as the water begins to evaporate from the ground.  Yup, only to give us another rainstorm at the end of the day – a vicious cycle.

Whine, whine, whine – but I’m kind of wishing it was snow.

It’s Complicated

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“That’s the sacred intent of life, of God — to move us continuously toward growth, toward recovering all that was lost and orphaned within us and restoring the divine image imprinted on our soul. And rarely do significant shifts come without a sense of our being lost in dark woods, or in what T.S. Eliot called the “vacant interstellar spaces.” ~ Sue Monk Kidd

The past year has been one of significant change.  I had been going along for a number of years, while the girls were in college, in a tranquil, quiet, albeit boring place.  My creativity had waned, I wasn’t interested in much of anything.  We were spending a large amount of our time on our little restoration project at Fort Pelham Farm, indoors and out.  Nothing so large to overwhelm me, but physical problems are challenges to be figured out and fixed.  The emotional things you can just sit on, keep them in the back of your mind or buried deep.

A little over a year ago my father had a slight stroke.  He was living alone in the house at the time, unable to go up and down the stairs.  The heat was always turned too high and he obsessed over the smallest things.  We had talked about moving him into Assisted Living but there wasn’t ever a time when you could bring it up.  The stroke solved many problems, mostly dealing with his safety.  He worked through what he had lost and is living comfortably in a facility near our shop in Enfield.

I had worked in long term care off and on for many years but it wasn’t until I had to move him into a facility that I struggled with the idea of a sense of place.  I was horrified at the thought that the day may come when someone moves me away from Rowe for my safety.

In working through what can only be seen as a grieving process I began taking classes in crafts that I had never done before.  Sara Burghoff spent a weekend teaching me how to hook rugs.  It was amazing and I was off and running.  Other people see me as being a little obsessive in crafting.  I like things that are quiet, meditative.  Using my hands helps me to think.  I did a lot of thinking, working things out.  I bought a loom from a friend that was moving and discovered weaving to be everything a craft needs to be for me right now.  It requires a mechanical way of thinking to design and set up a project but once you are going it is a quiet meditation.

I began to search for old friends only to find that the ones I most wanted to talk to had died – sad, but you have to know that this was not unexpected in some sense.  The people we don’t see we tend to hold in a sort of stasis, they never change in our minds.  When you are reunited you are shocked at how old they are (not realizing that you’ve aged right along with them).  I continued to weave and started to blog in earnest.

Writing is something I have always done.  It helps me to know myself.  Putting it out in public is different but the main reason I did it was as a record of where I was in time and place.  I did it for my kids, I wanted them to have a little insight into who I am.  At times there are such intensely personal things going on in my life that the thought of writing about it is immobilizing and yet the act of doing it sets me free.

In March of this year I was reunited with a son that I gave up for adoption 41 years ago.  I really haven’t written about it because this has been one of the most difficult things to work out in my head.  I also didn’t want to jinx it in any way – seems funny but it’s true.  S is an amazing, kind man.  It’s good to see genetics at work and at the same time to see what a wonderful person he turned into under the guidance of his adoptive family.

This has put me on quite a different path spiritually than I ever expected.  Things happened for a reason I’m convinced. The timing has been preordained I’m sure. It sounds cliche but I am convinced more than ever that things happen for a reason and these situations have put me in a position to examine my entire life.

 Difficult situations expand my creativity.  I’ve come to understand at least a little bit the tortured, creative mind.  I do my best work, whether it is photography, weaving, writing, anything, when I’m on the edge.  There are positives that can be seen in every difficult situation and these difficult times help a person to grow.

I’ve done genealogy for years and always found people’s personal stories fascinating.  I’ve pieced together lives from notes, receipts, photographs and census records. I always wished someone had written their story down. My girls have asked over the years why I never really talked about my story.  How it was when I was growing up.  I think I always assumed they learned it from other family members.  When S and I were reunited I realized that the biggest story of my life was something I had never talked about.

I am fortunate to have a total sense of place.  Most anything of consequence has happened in Rowe for me.  If it had happened somewhere else, Rowe was always the retreat.  A door has been opened now that will allow a true introspective look at the last 57 years and my hope is that I can commit it to paper.

Meat Loaf

Great work from a brilliant writer and what could be better than dog fiction.

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When you sit down, I lie down on the floor near you. When you get up to leave, I rise to follow you from room to room. My favorite room is the kitchen. If you stayed in the kitchen all day long it would be fine with me. Even when you’re not cooking I can smell the scent from the previous night’s meal, and the one before that and before that, going back to my favorite—meatloaf.

You know those aging cowboy actors doing television ads praising beef? Saying there’s nothing like a US prime cut of beef, or something like that? Well, I don’t disagree with them, but boy, could I growl some praise about meatloaf. What a perfect food, seasoned with spices, then cooked to bring out the flavor. No annoying bones to chew around and slow you down, or boring vegetables to pick out. Just beef. And ground…

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